Tuesday, December 27, 2011

I just want to be thin.

Is that really so much to ask?

I want to be thin so badly that I don't care if my hair falls out or my skin flakes or my nails turn blue or my teeth rot or my bones break or my period stops or my esophagus tears. I want to be thin so badly that I don't care if my stomach growls for days on end or my throat burns from shoving my fingers down it. I want to be thin so badly that I would do anything.

Anything.

I want to be thin so my dad will stop looking at me with disappointment. I want to be thin so I can get dressed without having to change five times because my clothes don't fit or my legs/stomach/arms/face/teeth look fat. I want to be thin so I can disappear.


I want to disappear.

2 comments:

  1. you'll get there sweetheart, just don't give up. its so hard to be patient but i know you can do it :) xxxxx

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  2. you really couldn't say anymore perfectly EXACTLY how I feel. We'll get there hunni xxx

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