Friday, February 22, 2013


A few days ago I realized that my ass is lopsided.
This makes me really sad because I actually liked my ass. Until I looked in the mirror and saw it was lopsided.
So now it has to go.

Thank you for your concern about me purging blood. I'm fine, for now. Love you all.

Tuesday, February 19, 2013

I purged three times today.

The last time, there was blood. And right now I have the worst pain on the left side of my rib cage in the back.

You know. Just living life.

Saturday, February 16, 2013

So even after

A night of heavy drinking, I still managed to weigh in this morning at 197.4. Sweet deal.

Unfortunately I just binged on an entire pack of cheese sticks so no more eating until dinner salad.

Friday, February 15, 2013


I'm going to start official Sunday weigh-ins to track weight weekly.
But on a happy note, after sleeping all day, I weighed in at 197.6. I never thought I'd be so happy to be back in the 190s.

Thank you so much everyone for your beautiful comments. They make me really happy.

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

And back up.

Bingeing has put me back at 201.0.

I'm fasting today except for water and possibly a lollipop. Hopefully this fast goes better than yesterday's did. I got high and ate pizza, essentially. It was bad.

Friday, February 8, 2013

Lower weight!

Finally back under 200! But just barely. I'm at 199.8 after waking up and eating eight mini Reese's and two sips of water.

I'm really surprised actually. I guess I didn't eat as much yesterday as I thought. Or maybe I just slept too much today haha.

I've been drinking Diet Coke like no one's business. Guess I'll go keep doing that!

Thursday, February 7, 2013

So I'm fat. What else is new.

According to the scale, yesterday I weighed 201.0, which is down about 3.6 pounds from binge feat city.

@LostinSpace the app kind of makes me feel like shit because I'm always over calorie limit but I think it does make me conscious of what I'm eating. So maybe it's working?

I'm not weighing myself today because I stayed up all night eating and drinking diet Coke...
Or maybe I will, just to be an asshole to myself.

Tuesday, February 5, 2013

Binges 2.0

So I binged tonight. So instead of about 750 calories I ate about 1900 calories today. Luckily there's not a whole lot more to eat in this house.

It's better than yesterday's binge of 3000+ so I guess that's something.


I haven't yet today. Yesterday I ate over 3000 calories and it is fucking disgusting. Today I'm at 393. This calorie tracker app is really helpful. I almost feel less fat already.

So I haven't updated my weight in a long time. For those of you who care to know the last time I weighed myself I weighed 204.

Wow, right?
So obviously it's time to stop fucking up. Salad and tomato soup for dinner maybe. Or maybe not. Who knows?

Monday, February 4, 2013

Happy birthday.

So yesterday was my birthday. I got some cool stuff and ate food. Woo.

BUT I got a new iPod and I got an app for calorie and exercise tracking which means... Well, no promises yet. You guys know how I get. But hopefully good things. There's stuff for salads in the fridge.

But there is also leftover ice cream cake.
Where did the willpower I used to have go?

I'm gonna go look for it.