Saturday, March 28, 2015


So today was an EPIC binge day (by recent standards anyway). What's weird, really, is that my binges now compared to what they used to be (especially back when I was purging) are pretty much nothing. I mean, they're certainly not NORMAL, but... And my daily food intake, while calorie counts are usually pretty high, for any other person would be pretty normal.

Today I Ate:
-1/2 pack of chocolate Necco wafers
-1 huge bowl (at least two cups worth) of Honey Bunches of Oats w/almonds and cashew milk
-1 box of Buncha Crunch candy (like movie theatre sized, the $1 boxes)
-1 box of Butterfinger Bites
-1 box of Milk Duds
-1 box of chocolate covered peanuts
-1/4 bag of Doritos
-1 turkey sandwich
-1 cup of barbecue chips
-1 bowl (whole box) of Jello

So basically a lot of food.
Gonna try to get back on track tomorrow.
I feel a little sick. I think it's the turkey sandwich. Turkey gives me heartburn.
Everything gives me heartburn.

I love you all very very much, Bella and Anne thank you for your comments. :) I'm gonna try to get back to commenting soon. I didn't really realize how difficult daily life is without my ADHD meds, and I left them in my room at school.
Also, I may be getting a tonsillectomy. Fingers crossed.
Love you.

Monday, March 23, 2015


So as many of you know, I've been purge-free for a really long (for me anyway) time now. I think it's over a year at this point.

Anyway, the thought hasn't crossed my mind in a really long time until tonight.
And I'm not gonna.
I know I'm not gonna.
But it scares me that I considered it.

Sunday, March 22, 2015

Disappearing and reappearing.

Most of my life at this point is fading in and fading out of different things. I haven't blogged in a really long time, and I feel like shit for it.
My weight has been ungodly stable for the past six weeks. I took an exercise class called Body Boot Camp which killed me. I didn't change my eating habits, but I also didn't gain weight, so I guess there's something to be said for crap massive amounts of exercise.

I've been drinking a lot (I mean, not a lot by alcoholic standards, but more than I usually do). Usually I only go out one night a week (Friday or Saturday), but lately I've been going out and drinking (not necessarily heavily) at least three nights a week.
So there's that.
I had strep last week for the sixth time this year.

I feel weird. Weird and sad. I'm home this week for spring break. But I haven't felt sad in awhile. Maybe I'm just coming down off of not being around people for awhile.

The past two days have been eat, sleep, record what I eat, go for a run.
I can't run very far.
Or very fast.
It's quite cold here.

For those of you that do still read my blog even though I'm awful and never post anymore, you should check out my fabulous friend Anne @ She's wonderful, and you all would love her.

That's all.