Wednesday, February 15, 2017

When I was younger...

I have some pictures of myself from during my major restricting phase.
It's interesting now to look at them.
When I saw them during that phase, I thought I looked huge.
A few years ago, during my purging phase, I thought I looked tiny.

Looking at them now, all I see is a normal sized seventeen year old. And it honestly kind of bothers me how much I hated myself all during that time. Actually, a lot of these pictures are from the time when I was starting to find value in myself as a person, when I started working at camp.

Now, I'm a huge monster-beast. But it's cool, I guess.

Sunday, February 12, 2017


I missed my anniversary again. I'm shit with remembering things.
It was on February 8th.

February 8th, 2017 marked 3 years being purge-free. 

Now if only I could make it a week without bingeing.