It's taken me so long to write this. I've been stuck on what Bella said - my last post would have been a great way to end things. But I'm bad at goodbyes, and things... aren't over.
Some recent updates to my life:
-I just celebrated one year at my current job and in my current apartment, which has given me the time and extra money to take care of myself a little better than usual.
-I'm currently working with a nutritionist in an effort to start to repair my relationship with food. Right now I am trying to relearn hunger cues.
-I have a goal to write a novel at some point. Right now, I'm just working in finishing this blanket that I started crocheting over a year ago (it got lost in the move).
I've been a little overwhelmed thinking about writing a novel. It's something I always wanted to do, but never had the drive or motivation to accomplish. I've been toying with the idea of taking my old blog posts and editing them into a novel. There's certainly enough material there. But I wonder - is it a cheap, lazy cop out to do that? And also... Would it even be something that publishers would consider worth reading?
(Probably not, unless I turned the ending into some cheap "I learned to love myself and now everything is all better" self-help bullshit)
Life marches on, whether we're ready or not.
