I am very very close to purging right now.



There's really no point in trying to say anything against it because it is the only way to deal with what I'm feeling right now.
Especially since it would be difficult to hide cutting myself for my job.
















I want to/don't want to.
I don't have anyone to talk to. I want to/don't want to talk to someone. I want to throw things and break things and hurt things and hurt myself along with it.


Update:
I did not purge.
I did not cut myself.
I did binge like an asshole.
I did continue hating myself.

But that's not new.