Thursday, May 3, 2012

On purging blood and suffering.

On purging, for Kate:
I am no medical expert when it comes to purging, and blood and whatnot. The only things I know are things that are easily accessible through the Google machine.
I really don't purge all that much, maybe 4-5 times a week. Usually only if I eat something that makes me feel guilty or if I overeat, occasionally I will b/p because I just feel mentally awful. Some weeks are better, some weeks are worse. I have only ever purged blood twice in my life. Once yesterday, and once in December. Both times, the blood has been bright red.
From what I have seen and heard on the internet, bright red blood means a tear in the throat/esophagus region (if anyone has any corrections for me, please leave them in the comments). Dark blood means internal bleeding, and is a sign that something is seriously wrong (also known as SEEK IMMEDIATE MEDICAL ATTENTION).

On suffering, from me:
I'm not really sure how I feel when people say they are "suffering" from an eating disorder. Yes, eating disorders are hell. Most of us don't even admit to having one. I don't know if I've ever said I have an eating disorder. Whenever I describe it, I usually say disordered eating habits. Because I don't have an eating disorder. Just some habits. I've never used the term suffering. Maybe it's okay in the past tense, i.e.; "I suffered from an eating disorder," but in the present tense... I don't like it.

Thoughts?

2 comments:

  1. Hey x

    Thanx for that!

    Like you I purge around 4 times a week.

    I usually eat low calorie things for breakfast and lunch because no one else is around to see how little im eating. But at dinner the hubby is around so I have to eat quite a lot, then I have to purge it.

    I think we all know we have issues, the real problem is telling some one so they can help. But do we want the help?

    Stay strong my lovely xxx

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  2. I don't believe I 'suffer' from an ED, maybe I have one, but suffering would be being stuck in an enormous fat body with no control. That would be serious suffering. I think of this... as a lifestyle choice :) Xo

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