Lately.

I've been at camp. I think I've lost a little weight.
But not enough.

Starting tomorrow, I'm going to be running twice a day, and one of the classes that I'm teaching is going to be a conditioning class, doing exercises and workout type things.
I need to be thin I need to be thin I need to be thin.
I even considered starting to try to purge at camp. I've never even considered purging at camp. But I know I need to stop eating so much. Every time something goes in my mouth I want to cry. No one really likes me, I don't think. I think everyone just tolerates me. And it makes me want to cry.