Tuesday, August 23, 2011

It's been a long time.

So let me fill you in on my life.
For those who care.

This summer, I lost a total amount of ZERO pounds. I'm just as fat as I was starting camp, and I'm heading off to college fatter than I've ever wanted to be in my life.
However, despite my non-weight-loss, I managed to have a relatively fantastic summer. I managed to not purge while at camp (I've only purged a total of three times this summer), but I did cut during my last night at camp (no campers, just staff. My mom bought me this handy little mini Swiss Army knife. Eight tiny cuts, all in a row. Deep enough to bleed, deep enough to hurt, not deep enough to scar).

Here's my boy drama from the summer:
K fell head over heels... For another girl. She's so sweet that I can't hate her. I don't even really like him anymore, and it's actually kind of nice, because the awkward tension that we had last year is now gone, and I can just joke around with him.
I hooked up with another guy, A. Drunk. Twice. He has a girlfriend. And the night after the second time we hooked up, he tried hooking up with another girl we work with. And he's been trying to get in her pants ever since, which makes me feel like shit. Because she's tiny (like 5'2") and runs cross-country (so she's super-skinny). She's the skinniest girl on staff. So, I feel like shit for being ditched for her. And she's kind of a ditz. Super-nice, but... Not the brightest bulb in the box.

My campers were, for the most part, amazing. I love working with kids. They're so honest, most of the time, and so loving. We had a stomach bug epidemic in the last two weeks, and one of my favorite campers of the summer had to go home, without me saying goodbye to her. I wanted to just break down and sob.

And now, I have less than a week before I go off on my pre-college camping trip. I'm going to try to start easing up on all the food I've been eating, and I'm going to try to start running again (sprained my ankle. Got an ankle brace. We'll see how this goes). On a bright note, I've discovered the joys of hummus. Now I need to start eating vegetables at home. And less real milk, more Almond Milk.


1 comment:

  1. i didn't lose weight either :/ i gained 20 pounds ugh btu i'm working on it. i'm glad you had a good summer though, i missed you <3


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