Long, hot summer.

It's been one hell of a summer, let me just start by saying that. I lived in a brand new state for ten weeks, and sweated my ass off, working at a new camp. I lost 26 lbs.
But that's not enough, of course not.
I need to lose more.
I need to lose more weight before this stupid wedding.
I think I actually conned someone into being my stupid date for this stupid wedding, how crazy is that?

School starts tomorrow. I have a job interview on Friday. So that's life right now. I love you all very much.

Low

I am feeling not so great lately. I've had more thoughts about purging in the past three months than I have in a long time.
I haven't actually acted on the thoughts, but I've come close.

I am worthless.
I am nothing.
I am an earthworm on the pavement, shriveled and crispy.