Out with the old.

I just threw away all of my old journals from when I was really starving. 

I feel like I just threw away a part of me.

But it feels like I threw away a bad part. And now I can move on.

Wow.

Thank you guys so much for your comments on my last post.

I know it's been a really long time since I've been on here. It feels like forever. I'm gonna have a rough time catching up on everyone's lives.


A lot has been going on with me recently, I'll go into it in detail in a later post. I just wanted to quickly say thank you for those amazing comments. <3

I am worthless.

I am pointless. I don't mean anything to anyone and no one gives a fucking rat's ass.

Lopsided

A few days ago I realized that my ass is lopsided.
This makes me really sad because I actually liked my ass. Until I looked in the mirror and saw it was lopsided.
So now it has to go.


Thank you for your concern about me purging blood. I'm fine, for now. Love you all.

I purged three times today.

The last time, there was blood. And right now I have the worst pain on the left side of my rib cage in the back.


You know. Just living life.

So even after

A night of heavy drinking, I still managed to weigh in this morning at 197.4. Sweet deal.

Unfortunately I just binged on an entire pack of cheese sticks so no more eating until dinner salad.

Weigh-ins

I'm going to start official Sunday weigh-ins to track weight weekly.
But on a happy note, after sleeping all day, I weighed in at 197.6. I never thought I'd be so happy to be back in the 190s.

Thank you so much everyone for your beautiful comments. They make me really happy.